Seems like it was yesterday
When I saw your face
You told me how proud you were,
But I walked away
If only I knew what I know today

I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I wanna call you
But I know you won't be there

Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you

Some days I feel broke inside
But I won't admit
Sometimes I just wanna hide
'Cause it's you I miss
And it's so hard to say goodbye
When it comes to this, ooh

Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?

There's nothing I wouldn't do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes
And see you looking back

Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself, oh

If I had just one more day
I would tell you how much that I've missed you
Since you've been away
Ooh, it's dangerous
It's so out of line
To try and turn back time

I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself..
By hurting you...

I know my posts have been very emotional these days. Sorry for the improper blog posts recently... I didn't know what to write. I just keep starring at the black page. I have alot of problems in life since I stepped in this world. I want to tell it to my friends about it, but, I don't want them to worry bout me when they themselves have their own problems. I want to tell it to my Dad coz I'm closest to him, but I don't have the guts to... I don't wish to let this out to anyone. I guess I shall just be strong and move on in life. Sometimes when I'm with my friends, I keep quiet thinking bout all the problems I have in life. But to come to think of it again. My friends too have their problems. And why does it seems so easy for some people to share and express problems to others. And why can't I just go to someone I love and express my problems. Coz I don't want to give them more burden, and that's it. I promise to myself eversince I'm young that I'll never give burdens to the people I love.

How I wish I could write this to my parents...

To Dad & Mum,
If you're reading this. I'm really sorry, if all this while I've been a great burden for you to handle. I know I'm a bad son. I said alot of harsh things to you... And did alot of hurting things to you. I really don't have the intentions to hurt you, I know I don't open up to you and be ur bestest son like what I was last time when I was still a child. I just don't know who to turn to. I'm trying my best to be independant and to not give any burden to you too. I know I said and did alot of harsh things to you, but no matter what I still love you. Mum, although you nag at me like almost everyday and busy with work, I know that deep inside you love me and you care. Dad, You are always busy with your office admin work. I know that you love me and care for me too. I am proud to have parents like both of you. I love you both. Till death do us part. :')
Bro (Ridzwan) & Sis (Athira)
I know we do fight alot. But whatever it is. We're still brothers and sister. I love you both. I know sometimes my words and actions are harsh. But I really don't have the intentions to hurt you both. I'm really sorry. I really love you both. I Love my family.

Yours Sincerely,
Riezam.

You might see that I've changed my blog song to CHRISTINA-AGUILERA-HURT. Coz that song is really meaningful to me. It helps me to somehow realise all the mistakes I've done. I love It. :D

Right now I'm like addicted to Amy Winehouse Songs. I bought her record Album and downloaded her bonus tracks. :DD

Kay gotta go!!! :DD